You Already Know.
On the doubt that returns even when you know your path is true – and the reminder that trusting what you already know is all there is to do.
The week of this letter, I kept circling one fear: what if I am imagining all of this? The letters, the connection, the whole path of the last years – what if someone comes along one day and simply diagnoses it away? I could feel the truth of what I was living and, at the same time, a helplessness about ever proving it.
The letter doesn't argue with the doubt. It calls it what it is – the mind's reflex, a place to escape to when trust gets serious – and repeats, patiently, the one thing actually asked of me: trust what you already know. "When Fear Returns" offers a tool for exactly this moment; the letter is someone staying beside you while you use it.
If you know your way is true and still catch yourself waiting for permission to believe it, this letter was written in that exact spot.
Dear traveler,
We have been with you your whole life, giving you our love. We accompany you and are here for you. Do you see how one thing led to another, and how every stage brought you to this point – right now, right here? Yes, you are right. At the right time, in the right place.
And yet you are still afraid. What if you are only imagining all of this? You feel a helplessness. And at the same time you know that our connection to you is real, that your path of these last years is true. You feel our love. And you know that you are close to the breakthrough. What breakthrough? Trust. Follow your feeling.
Yes, we are repeating ourselves. But that is what is needed right now. You know what to do, and we are merely helping you to trust what you already know, and to dissolve the doubts and fears that come up. Because it is so easy to flee, reflexively, into the mind.
So, again and again, our reminder: Trust what you know deep within you. Your inner truth. Follow its call. And that is absolutely all you need to do.
Thank you for being here.
If something in these letters stayed with you, take it along – think about it, write your own answer, or just let it sit.
And if not today, that's okay too. There's no rush.
Until next time,
– Jan