Sitting on Clouds.
What's the worst that can happen – the dream doesn't come true? So be it. And what if it comes true better?
Bella has dreamed all her life – toys, Spain, a boy named Alyoshka – and defended that dreaming half of herself even next to a more grounded husband. Then, one night, she caught something quietly missing: she had stopped. Not out of boredom. Out of a feeling of not deserving it – not deserving the dreams, not even deserving to dream.
The middle-of-the-night question that broke it open is the one this site keeps asking: why not? Worth isn't earned by years worked or things achieved – the Amulet of Love page says it without conditions: you are loved unconditionally, and nothing about the asking has to be earned. Her answer arrives like sunrise: I deserve. We all deserve. And nobody but ourselves can take that right away.
Her closing logic is bulletproof. Read it before you shelve your own cloud.
🌸 Sitting on clouds is not a crime ☁️✨
All my life I've loved to dream.
As a child – about toys and friends. Later – about a car, an apartment, a life in Spain. I dreamed of getting married, of having a boy named Alyoshka. Dreams were always with me.
And then I met my husband. I'm a lover of sitting on clouds. He's more down-to-earth. But I always defended my part, the one that knows how to dream.
After all, it makes things worse for no one. So why not?
Recently I had a meeting with a spiritual person. And as all of it slowly digested… I suddenly understood: I had stopped dreaming.
Not because it wasn't interesting.
But because, somehow… I hadn't earned it.
Hadn't earned my dreams coming true. Hadn't earned even dreaming.
It was a strange mixture of the fear of losing everything – and the feeling that it's “not for me.”
But that night, lying in bed, I suddenly thought:
Why? Why don't I deserve to dream?
I dream of a house for my husband and me. Why can't I have a house?
I dream of a trip to the sea. Why, after working so many years, haven't I earned that?
It was like a light going on.
I – deserve. We all deserve.
And no one but ourselves can take this right away from us – the right to dream.
From today on – I dream.
Yes, we will have a house.
Our little girl will have her own room. And someday it will remain hers – as a piece of love from us.
There will be the sea. A move. Work. Hobbies. Everything we want.
Dreaming doesn't hurt.
We do no one any harm, sitting on our cloud.
A dream is strength. It's movement. It's inner light.
What's the worst that can happen?
That the dream doesn't come true?
So be it.
And what if it comes true – better than we ever imagined?
Thank you for reading.
If her words reached somewhere mine don't – good. That's what this blog is for. Take what fits and leave the rest.
– Jan