The World Answered.

🌸 Why I created this channel

This post is a little longer than usual, but it matters to me to say why all of this is here. Maybe you'll recognize yourself in these lines.

From 18 to 27 my life was far from joy, though in photos and from the outside everything looked fine. Inside I was angry at the whole world. It seemed it didn't love me. I lived like a grump – with resentment, aggression, anger. In the village people hardly spoke to me, in the city nobody noticed me, and I wasn't looking for company myself. There were suicidal thoughts, a complete absence of self-worth, an unwillingness to accept myself. Sometimes I remember that time and think: why did I do that to myself? But back then I didn't ask myself such questions.
It was a swamp. Groundhog Day. The same situations over and over, and all of it brought only sadness, pain, and disappointment. I changed jobs every six months, relationships with men lasted a couple of months at most, and I felt like a failure.

And then a mentor appeared in my life. That's where my path began. Later came my husband's mentor. Books, the pendulum, practices, shamans, mentors, healers, self-knowledge, rituals. All of it became part of me.
Yes, it may sound banal: “retreats”, “spiritual path”, “practices”… It's everywhere now. But there's a difference between doing it “for Instagram” and it becoming the meaning of your life. For my husband and me it became exactly that – the meaning.

Of course, change doesn't come in one day. I've been walking this path for more than 5 years now, and I understand I'll be on it always, because it's impossible to know everything to the end.
But here's what I noticed: I came to love the world – and it answered me in kind.
First my career took off, I found myself in HR and for the first time stayed in one place not six months but 4 years!!! Then I met my future husband, and now we're expecting a baby 🥰
In the village someone is always talking to me now; my husband laughs: “It's impossible to just go out with you – someone will definitely stop you and ask you something.” In Moscow it's the same: strangers come up, talk, help.
My family changed: mom, dad, their relationship. My circle of friends became different: without toxicity, gossip, or dirt. These are people-family.

I want to say something separately about my husband. He makes amulets. Not for sale – they are born for those who truly need them. Friends come for them, people close to us, my mom, I do myself. And every amulet brings something of its own. To some it comes for a long time. For others it serves a very short while – but exactly in that moment it gives what was needed. And every time, seeing how it works, how it supports and changes, I can only smile.

And what's even more astonishing – the world seems to turn its face toward you. Kind people everywhere, help and acceptance everywhere, as if space itself had grown softer.

We often hear the banal phrases: “Trust.” “Love the world, and it will love you.” On social media they sound empty, even silly. But when you go into the practices sincerely, when you open your heart to the world – it stops being a pretty quote. It becomes your life.

That is exactly why I created this channel.
To share how love and trust, step by step, change us and the whole world around us. 🌿