Something Ripening.
She can't name what's growing yet – so she guards the sprout, reads the signs, and refuses to hurry it.
Two clocks tick in this post. One is borrowed: get a job, don't “stagnate” at home, keep pace with everyone succeeding on Instagram. The other has no numbers on it at all – something is ripening, she says, and she can't name it yet, only guard it.
What she does with the borrowed clock is the practice: she doesn't smash it, she just notices whose it is. Growth out of season can't be forced – the sprout she describes is the oldest image on this site – and the signs she collects instead of a five-year plan are exactly what Surfing the Ocean of Truth means by learning to recognize the current and swim with it. Her last line could close that article: stay open, and follow the call.
Where it leads, she honestly doesn't know. That's not a gap in the post. That's the post.
Since the move to Switzerland I've had a strange feeling inside. As if something is ripening in me. I don't understand it yet, but I'm watching this little sprout, helping it and protecting it.
Recently I got to thinking about work – that it's about time I did something, “can't just stagnate at home being a mom”. Have to fulfil yourself, keep up with all the successful people on Instagram. But unfortunately I don't have a clear profession to build my life around, and I came back to the question “what do I want to be when I grow up”. But my husband quickly brought me back down to earth, and I know myself that working while caring for an infant, a month after relocating, is not the wisest decision.
And then the signs started. I began to feel a strong faith – in myself, in the Universe, in the power of spirituality. Then an interview I happened to come across, where a woman I hadn't exactly seen as a role model really surprised me – she's into spirituality too. Then a TV show where the guest was into the same things as us, so to speak. More and more I feel the Universe wants to tell me something, and for now I'm trying to put the puzzle together. And of course my husband's mom's link to a coaching and mentoring course, which also really interests me.
While my strength ripens, I share my thoughts here – and if I can help someone with a text, a card or a personal conversation, I'll be glad.
And where the Universe will lead me – I hope we'll find out soon) The main thing is to stay open and follow the call
Thank you for reading.
If her words reached somewhere mine don't – good. That's what this blog is for. Take what fits and leave the rest.
– Jan