The Net.
When your body refuses to play along, it is not against you – it is pulling you out of wanting, toward the net that holds everyone.
There was a stretch at work when I wanted hard and got nothing back. Fear in the mornings, despair by the afternoon – and a body that simply went on strike: no energy, no motivation, no flow. I asked what I was supposed to know about that.
The answer turns the picture around: the body is not sabotaging, it is teaching. It was pointing out that I was stuck in wanting – my own, and everyone else's pressing in on me. Above all those competing wills, the letter says, lies a net of light, love, and energy that holds everyone, and it is reached the way "Surrender & Decision" describes: by trusting, listening in, letting go. "Falling" told the same secret from the other side – what catches you appears the moment you let yourself fall.
If work currently feels like a contest of wills, read this one slowly. The last three sentences are enough to take with you.
Dear traveler,
You want, and it doesn't work. You want, and your body won't play along. It digs in its heels. It seems to set itself against you. It withdraws your energy. Motivation. Flow. You think your body is against you. But you know it is with you. It guides you. It teaches you.
For right now you are in wanting. Partly in your own wanting. But also in the wanting of your coworkers. Both are wanting. Yes, exactly, fine – others constantly try to impose their own will on you. But that too is wanting.
Be certain that above all of it there is a net of light, love, and energy that embraces everyone. Everyone. Your coworkers too. And this net is stronger than the will of any single person. Much stronger.
You know this net. It is the stillness we keep reminding you of. The stillness that wants to be heard. The stillness that can only be reached through surrender. Through trusting. Through listening in. Through letting go. You know it.
We only want to remind you once more: no matter how it looks to your mind. No matter how much you think you cannot escape the will of others. The force that lies beyond this fear is greater. And it is always there. And it catches you in exactly the moment you let yourself fall.
Listen to your body. What doesn't feel good isn't. Find the lightness.
Thank you for being here.
If something in these letters stayed with you, take it along – think about it, write your own answer, or just let it sit.
And if not today, that's okay too. There's no rush.
Until next time,
– Jan